Sunday, January 12

i'm getting old. no ball today. i wanted to, but the thought of the pain tomorrow was too much. plus, i wanted to celebrate the b-days of jane and john.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

it is the first time i wanted to rush home asap, to go to bed early... it is the first time that the thought of playing ball didn't overwhelm and consume me.... maybe i'm ready for a girlfriend now? HAHAHA...

shaggy had some news for me... an offer... should i take it? perhaps... life gets stranger and more confusing.

a revelation today: i had not known that doctors had to be SUCH early risers. if i had known earlier, i think i might have taken a different path. such a life for several years is ok, but the thought of doing this for the rest of my life is... i can't do it. i don't mind blood, vomit, poop, gross wounds, any of that. that would not deter me from medicine. early mornings for the rest of my life.... that is SUCH a big factor that no one had ever told me about.

today, bc asked, "what are we doing? we should just work in a movie theater! take ticket stubs, and go in to watch movies! that's what we are working for, ANYWAY, when we retire!" it was said as a joke, but it had a bitter sting of some truth to it. a lot of truth to it.

there are times when i think, if i had to do it ALL over again, what would i do? it's not an easy answer, but my answer for now is this: i want to be a high school biology teacher.

any kind of neighborhood. regular or AP. i have some experience with hs kids, and i think it would be a blast to take a lot of disinterested kids, and make biology come alive for them. i am confident that i can teach biology in an interactive way so that it would be fun and that my students would come out KNOWING their bio.

maybe it's my tired self talking. i don't know. :(


yakob at 11:14 PM

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