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medicine: wk 1, day 2
i woke up at 4am today to read a bit more on my patient, and prepare for morning presentations.
went in at 5:30am, pre-rounded (saw my patients in the morning) and got my stuff together for rounds. presented, and did decently. learned a LOT.
then followed a looong day of seeing many patients, working on their care, and admitting new patients.
i just finished, sometime around 11:30pm. i am about to collapse. sometime during the night, the thought struck me: why am i PAYING to be tortured like this?! i couldn't think of a good answer.
i love what i am doing. but my body is not built to function like this. especially not my body. my body needs sleep.
today, my chief shook his head at me, half sad, half disappointed, as i was nodding off during conference. i SAW him look sad and disappointed. i was doing my DARNEDEST to stay awake, pinching myself, punching my jaw, etc, but it didn't work. i saw his sad, disappointed face thru my half-closed eyes . . . and i was able to do nothing about it. :(
i fell asleep, sad.
i would tell you about my patient who has had chronic diarrhea for months (and i thought some of MY bouts with the runs were bad. imagine diarrhea for MONTHS. just the thought makes my anus feel raw...), or about my obese, diabetic patient who has serious heart problems and is getting a CABG, but i'm too tired. too tired to type, too tired to care.
sorry.
and this is day TWO. my God. i'm gonna die.
*edit* but you know what brings a smile to my face? reading this:
"Kobe Bryant made an NBA-record 12 shots from 3-point range, including nine straight, in scoring 45 points Tuesday night as the Los Angeles Lakers beat the Seattle SuperSonics 119-98.
Bryant, who shot 12-of-18 from beyond the arc and 16-of-28 overall, made his first 11 3-point shots in the second and third quarters. His nine straight 3-pointers also set an NBA single-game record.
Bryant received a standing ovation from the Staples Center crowd when he left the game for good with 4:16 left to play and the Lakers leading 110-88."
absolutely amazing. i'm telling you, we are living in a special era...
yakob at 11:59 PM
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i woke up at 4am today to read a bit more on my patient, and prepare for morning presentations.
went in at 5:30am, pre-rounded (saw my patients in the morning) and got my stuff together for rounds. presented, and did decently. learned a LOT.
then followed a looong day of seeing many patients, working on their care, and admitting new patients.
i just finished, sometime around 11:30pm. i am about to collapse. sometime during the night, the thought struck me: why am i PAYING to be tortured like this?! i couldn't think of a good answer.
i love what i am doing. but my body is not built to function like this. especially not my body. my body needs sleep.
today, my chief shook his head at me, half sad, half disappointed, as i was nodding off during conference. i SAW him look sad and disappointed. i was doing my DARNEDEST to stay awake, pinching myself, punching my jaw, etc, but it didn't work. i saw his sad, disappointed face thru my half-closed eyes . . . and i was able to do nothing about it. :(
i fell asleep, sad.
i would tell you about my patient who has had chronic diarrhea for months (and i thought some of MY bouts with the runs were bad. imagine diarrhea for MONTHS. just the thought makes my anus feel raw...), or about my obese, diabetic patient who has serious heart problems and is getting a CABG, but i'm too tired. too tired to type, too tired to care.
sorry.
and this is day TWO. my God. i'm gonna die.
*edit* but you know what brings a smile to my face? reading this:
"Kobe Bryant made an NBA-record 12 shots from 3-point range, including nine straight, in scoring 45 points Tuesday night as the Los Angeles Lakers beat the Seattle SuperSonics 119-98.
Bryant, who shot 12-of-18 from beyond the arc and 16-of-28 overall, made his first 11 3-point shots in the second and third quarters. His nine straight 3-pointers also set an NBA single-game record.
Bryant received a standing ovation from the Staples Center crowd when he left the game for good with 4:16 left to play and the Lakers leading 110-88."
absolutely amazing. i'm telling you, we are living in a special era...
yakob at 11:59 PM