Tuesday, November 19

i'm a little upset right now, because our security guards would not open the door to the rooftop to see the meteor shower of this magnitude that comes once every 100 yrs. even a brief flash of anger came over me. but these guys were only doing their job, following rules, guidelines.

i didn't want them to get nailed, anyway. the situation just sucked. their boss, the sergeant, didn't even hear me out on the phone. just said, "no, no, no," and then hung up. the security guards and i ended up chatting for a bit.

i was trying to make them feel a little guilty about depriving me of this once in a lifetime thing, and they were sharing stories of past suicides from rooftops. when we parted, they knew i wasn't mad at THEM, and i knew they couldn't do anything for me without breaking rules and getting in trouble.

poop.

i was feeling all deep too, ready to kick out how beautiful things can be even during times when one is doing something as ugly as studying. alas, i am to go without my once-in-a-100-yrs-meteor-shower, and to submerge back into the depths of studying...

yakob at 5:47 AM

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