Monday, July 22

STORM YG:
PJH preached on Daniel 1:
* God is powerful (God is sovereign)
* God has a plan (not only a plan for YOU, but a grand plan, that encompasses so much more)
* God provides

then, in bible study: Psalm 51
this psalm always rocks my world. it's a song of intense repentance, of worship, of asking God to cleanse and purify (where the song, create in me a clean heart comes from), thoughts and feelings i know i go through. david says this psalm because God confronted him thru Nathan the prophet for committing adultery with Bathsheba and causing the death of Uriah.

that's bad, isn't it: adultery, murder?

and yet, i've done things in the past that i'm very, very sad and ashamed of. things i'd rather not put on this blog. things i wish i could go back and undo. not for the harm it caused me, but for the wounds i so carelessly inflicted on others. times that i wished that the earth would open up and swallow me.

5:00 service (PV)
Matthew 22 Parable of the wedding banquet. PV presented this parable in a way that i've never heard or known before. at times, i'm amazed at how pastor's receive this type of wisdom and understanding. and i wonder how i might also gain such wisdom and understanding. prayer, jacob.

open mike(open to anyone who wants to play a song, rap, read poetry, stand up comedy, etc. once every 6 wks.)
awesome performances. i'm especially struck by JeeH's songs. they are songs that don't sit easy. with just a few phrases, her songs tear thru all the weak seams in me.

balled from 9:30 till midnight. pooped. i feel bad, cause i'd told lorac and some of the others that i'd eat dinner with them, but with a little pressure from by younger bro, i went to ball. played decently well. i play ball differently from most guys. i play to win, true, but as my younger brother often says, i seem to be playing a different game. that's because i get kicks out of little things while am playing, and laugh half the time i'm on the court. paul kim, from mt sinai med, is also of this personality, so we get along well. we have a running conversation of smack while we play, egg each other on to shoot, laugh when the other screws up, and give a earnest congratulatory pat when the other does well. during one of the games today, my team was doing well, it was game point, and i had the ball. i busted a move on my guy, lost him, and was picked up by someone else: my older brother, jimmy. i looked at him, laughed, and yelled out, "it's kobe time!" (basically announcing to him that i'm gonna shoot it) and then drilled a jumper in his face. it was hilarious, not because it was on my older brother, but because i actually hit the shot. i'm always clowning around, and i've missed shots like that after running my mouth countless times. i got good laughs out of those, too. i think i have gary payton's personality, without payton's skills...

sorry, lorac. i'm sure i'm not adding joy to your recent sadness by ditching the large group dinner. (i guess joyce (one of the YG kids) IS right to call me, the ditcher (so named b/c i have to leave YG sometimes to attend to other church duties).. i just want you to know that i appreciate you, and your friendship very, very much. (btw, yoyoma + paganinni = awesome music. thank you!!!)

yakob at 1:47 AM

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