Monday, July 29

i'm so happy to be hearing from all my high school friends that i've lost touch with, it's ridiculous.

the latest to contact me: howard, henry, and daniel.
what have u clowns been up to?!!

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Psych wk 5, day 21:

sometime ago, i sat down with my attending and chief resident, as they evaluated my mid-rotation performance. they basically said that i was doing well, improving rapidly, and would definitely pass. they also said that i was in position to go for an honors grade by asserting myself in a leadership role in the care of my patients. while that was good to hear, i was thinking to myself, yeah, right. that would mean keeping the RATE of improvement, as well rocking my write-ups and shelf exam (the final exam for my rotation).

since then, i think i HAVE been taking the lead in the care of my patients. i've sat down and really thought through what the problems were, what level of function was realistic for each of my patients, and have discussed changes in treatment plans for each of my patients. i had to discuss extensively with some of my uppers to impliment some of my ideas, but today, one of em was actually implimented. not that big a deal, but i got a little bit of satisfaction that i was actually making things happen for the better. this wk will show whether i actually helped them or not.

although I think that i've stepped up, i have this weird feeling that my attending might not think the same. i've been improving rapidly since the beginning, but i think my performance now has somewhat leveled off. there's only so much i can improve, with my limited experience (and knowledge). i'm tired of trying to improve all the time, anyway. can't i just work?

i've got to do another write-up, prepare for a presentation for rounds tomorrow, and study for a test on wednesday. yay...

all that will happen after praise team practice tonight. that, at least, i'm looking forward to. it's just gonna hurt afterwards...

yakob at 5:34 PM

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