Saturday, July 27

Psych wk 4, day 20:

during rounds today, i forgot to mention a couple of important things. i think i went backwards a bit in my progress, in terms of impressions on the attending. oh well. i was too tired to care.

zipped out of there as fast as i could. i wanted to get to church, where i could just relax.

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it was the third lesson for alpha course: why did jesus die?
the simplicity and the IMPACT of the gospel is amazing. in my christian life, i'm understanding more and more how far my sins have placed me from God, the DEPTH of my sins, and how that great distance was closed by Jesus.

one thing that Pastor Gumbel (when i hear his name, "gumby and pokey" keep coming to mind) said that stuck with me: we think we are not such bad ppl, that we are relatively ok. but what if we had 10 things that we were most ashamed of, that we had thought of, or done, and had them on a huge screen behind us, for all to see? for all your family, close friends, strangers and the ppl you want to impress to look at, in shock, as the darkness in your heart was revealed? i would want to be like a worm, digging myself into the ground, to hide, hide. this must be somewhat like what Adam and Eve felt when their eyes were open, and they saw how they had sinned before God.

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got a call on fri night from, CALEB!!
so, i haven't seen this hs friend for a loooong time. 4-5 years, i think. he was in NY, so we met up after alpha, and caught up. caleb, a friend of his, julia, susan, steve (friend of susan, who also went to school with dave chu, who is now a med student at UCSD. niiiiice. he might come to NYU for an ortho elective. niiiiiice. dave, where were you, man? steve wanted to hang out, dude!) and i just yapped it up for while. then, caleb and julia had to go...*sniff* it was too short. i'm on call on sat, getting of at midnight, so there was no way for me to hang with them on sat. argh.

caleb and i had some good times, back in the day. we studied lot, together, back in soph yr, junior yr of h.s. caleb, joe and i would study for AP US history and stuff, and totally get no work done together. we'd talk, mess around, sing praise songs, share about christian struggles, and just generally...mess around. haha. it was good times. i miss those times with him.

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went to kum kang san in k-town with susan and steve, where we met some remnant ppl: junho, jason, and john. it was cool to hang with these guys, whom i had never really spent significant time with. i really need to ge to know other remnant ppl, and strangers, instead of just the ppl i've known, and are comfy with. these guys are really interesting, and lead interesting lives.

i was surprised when i found myself getting really, really tired. at 1:20am. wow. i MUST be getting old, when i get tired at 1:20am. only 4 months ago, i was regularly sleeping at 4am, 5am. now i get tired at 1:20. sheesh. at least, by sleeping schedule is normal, and i don't have trouble falling asleep. these days, i snooze as soon as my head hits my barley filled pillow.

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great news for me!! yesterday, caleb told me of a website that all my friends back at arcadia had set up:

arcaholics

these are my hs friends!!!! i feel like i haven't seen them in forever! i haven't been back to LA in 4 years or so. i miss these guys so much. they were always inviting me to do stuff, and i had to refuse so often, because of this, because of that (all of which proved to be totally unimportant compared to the time lost with my friends), but they always invited me anyway, and were really one source of fun and release that would otherwise have made much of my growing up miserable.

i lost all their contact info some yrs back when i accidentally formatted my HD in trying to install windows (aiy! stupid me!) and have been caught up in the small busy things in life, but now i have a means of keeping in touch! i want to go back so much...just to see these guys.

i really miss you guys a lot.


yakob at 11:55 AM

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