Monday, June 24

late to the wedding.

it was at GMC, a huge church in virginia. the wedding itself was sort of medium-sized. soo looked lovely in her wedding dress, and ed was quite the man. it was good to see all the GLC ppl.

timothy looked so cute in his little tux as the ring bearer, but i was very hurt when he didn't remember my name. timothy! how can you have forgotton? at least stephen remembers me, even though he is younger than timothy. ironic, b/c timothy used to love me, and stephen was the one that always ran away from me. john and joshua have no idea who i am, and cry when they see me. jonathan and dave too. ah, these little ones have no idea how my heart crumbled when they didn't recognize me. don't you remember, little ones? don't you remember the one who trained you to call me by, "master," to allow you to play? the one who taught all of you to play the glorious "silent" game? you were so good, too. i was so proud . . . you have forgotten your training so soon.

reception was cozy. ed and soo came much later than the rest of us, as they did their thing for the korean reception (held separately). which was fine with us, b/c there was a lot of mingling and stuff going on.

dinner was great, everything was entertaining.

during the bouquet toss, a cousin of soo's, named, jenny, caught it.

then, came the garter belt. and who caught it? or, rather, who fought and clawed for it? ah. yes, yes. yours truly. yours truly.

so, i was all happy that i had it, but then the MC called the two of us up. and then told us to dance. whoa. all of the sudden, i regretted catching the garter belt. i had mild panic and queasiness come over me. three years ago, i would've had an overwelming urge to run away. i guess i've grown, b/c that moment passed quickly, and i strode out over to the girl.

her name was j, and she was soo's cousin. i tried to remember as much of the foxtrot as i could, and in a few moments, we were doing our thang. i wish i had remembered more, but only several steps came to me. sorry, j, and everyone else who was there.

it was fun to see GLC ppl get all funky. i didn't know some of them had it in them. even PR and Ann, and all the boys got all buggy. the new pastor was seriously impressive. breaking and everything. a new type of pastor, that's for sure.

i had a good time, didn't dance as much as i did for parker and gyju's wedding. i just didn't have as much energy, and i wasn't really feeling the groove. but i did dance a bit, and had a good time watching.

after the reception, lots of pics taken, then headed over to v's. watched some of GLC's prepared clips, which were astounding in their quality.

v and i went out to the back porch, sat on a bench, and shared. about life, love and other mysteries. then, we went up to sleep, but continued chatting until 5 in the morning. it was a good time of sharing, encouraging, and just remembering who we were, and where we came from, and the changes we had been thru. valuable times like those don't come often, but when they do, i treasure them.

woke up waaaay late. lots of little things happened, jc happened., and i wasn't exactly happy. i kept everything in, b/c what i was feeling was not righteous anger. it was sin. spent a good portion of my wake hours in prayer, that God would diffuse me. which took perhaps a quarter of the day. i was a quiet man today. there are few things, few ppl that can rouse anger within me. i am always a little saddened when something like this happens, b/c the big steps forward that i believe were made, now seemed small.

i was also left with an empty and sorrowful feeling within me, for missing church. not only youth group, which i missed, nor the 11:30, nor the GLC service, but also the 5:00 service. this was the LORD's day, and i did not honor and dedicate this day for my LORD the way i should have. true, there were a lot of things that just simply went wrong, but today, we crumbled easily under the pressure of satan.

pics soon to be posted.

long day.



yakob at 3:47 AM

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