Friday, June 13

i've said it before, but i must say it now. LIFE IS CRAZY.
sometimes, i just want to step aside and view it as an outsider. cause some of this stuff is just absolutely unbelieveable, even to me.

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during our 3-headed small group, we talked about walls in our lives that we wanted to be built. (as nehemiah built walls for God).
some of the things i thought about:

- to be remembered as living an all-out christian life
- to be remembered as being honest
- to be remembered as being self-sacrificial

and this: i've always wanted to do something about orphans. maybe it's one too many books i've read, too much anne of green gables, but i've always wanted to adopt a kid. or two. or three. or maybe even more. (anyone read cheaper by the dozen by gilbreth? GREAT read. about 7th grade level reading).

my idea is to adopt the opposite gender child of whatever is naturally born. thus, if a boy pops out, adopt a girl. if a girl pops out, adopt a boy. that way, i'll have even # of boys and girls. plus, it eases the strain on my wife, i think. i probably wouldn't go a dozen, but don't bet against me. i figure, with 12 kids, ONE of them has to make the nba, right? ;)

but in all seriousness, i really want to do this. jesus even says "look after orphans and widows in distress." we christians pass over it lightly, but i mean to take this quite seriously. it's like missions for me. i've told myself and God that i would go all throughout hs and college, which is why i HAVE to go on this honduras trip. put the $ where my mouth is, you know? actually take a step forward. the thing with orphans will be the same. i am going to take that step. i've actually thought about adopting a kid while i'm a resident, before i get married. my parents can babysit when i am not home. they'd like that. won't exactly be appealing to potential wives, but it will screen out the chaff, no? hahahahaha. ok, maybe the last one is a half-baked idea...

i haven't reached these "walls," yet. i might be very far from them in fact. but i hope that these might be some of the things that remain, as a testament to God, and God's work in my life.

i'm really excited about honduras, though. i will most likely be working with the honduran red cross. SWEET. my point person/organizer was telling me about honduras, the environment, how there will be ppl and guards with machine guns at every corner. i think he was trying to scare me a little, but he didn't know that he was just getting me more excited and happy to go. the prospect of trekking through the wild gives me the shivers (the good kind), and the idea of providing health care in a risky, dangerous environment makes me think, THIS IS WHY GOD BROUGHT ME TO MED SCHOOL. oh yeah! and maybe i'll be allowed to carry a small side-arms myself? hehehe. look out! jacob with a GUN. ooOOOo.... ok, maybe that isn't a good idea...

i realize that it could be a little dangerous, but that's ok. i'm going into this with wide open eyes. if, in the extreme case, i die while there, it'll be fine. cause i know i'm going to heaven, and i know that i died doing God's will. i'll be like jim elliot!! hehe. then all of you who read my blog will have to write books about me. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

how weird would that be, though, really? you would look back and remember me joking about my death in this blog, and feel really, really sad. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

ok. i'm tired. i don't know what i'm talking about, anymore. good night.







yakob at 1:24 AM

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