Monday, April 28

pediatrics: wk 1, day 1

i'm so HAPPY!

NS, the hospital i am working at, is very nice. the environment is such the polar opposite of BH. i feel like i'm at a country club, and not a hospital.

and it's so close to some of my YG kids! :D

orientation this am, the director asked us if anyone was interested in peds. 1 person raised her hand. out of 19. it was kind of sad.

i LIKE kids. i LIKE pediatricians (they are generally nicer ppl). i'm going to give this a fair shake. who knows? maybe i'll go into this and open up a practice with paul. hahaha


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HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DK!!!!!!!!! (fri)

i love this guy. like my blood brother. all smiles, encouragement. (no really. in his case, this is not just a christiany thing to say. he really IS)

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had a somewhat frustrating talk with R. R doesn't see the problem at all. just trying to defend herself. can't seem to stop and think about what the issue actually is. R even tried to turn to tables on me, as if this were a battle or argument or something. in some aspects, she may be right, but she misses the main point altogether.

the ironic thing is, i recognize that stubborn prideful defensive attitude very well. not too long ago, that was very much a big part of my make-up. maybe it still lurks there, sometimes? who knows...

but sometime btwn then and now, i realized that being right isn't the end all. that revelation really turned things upside down. not that i have great perspective now. i have many many lapses... but that revelation has its place in me.

how can i get R to see this, also? it makes me a little sad. because the breaking for me to get that revelation was hard. rough. i don't really want her to go through it. but if she must, she must.

even in this, i think that God has a good sense of humor, and He is showing me, "see, jacob? this is how you were."


yest: rev.opdtr?cek


yakob at 11:37 PM

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