Wednesday, February 5

medicine wk 5, day 29

tossed and turned all night. myalgia, fever, painful cough. i don't remember the flu being so painful. i am told that there is the norwalk virus going around my hospital. hospitals are a dangerous place.

i woke up at 4am to prepare yet another presentation.

i went to work shivering and shaking. i don't know what i looked like. a mess, probably.

attending wrecked me when i gave my presentation. i can do no good with this guy. i went on, helplessly. continued to get hammered.

i felt too sick and out of it to be bothered by it, though.

i zombie-walked thru the rest of the day. didn't even pick up a patient. good thing no patient's healthcare depends solely on ME.

had a mtg with my firm chief. who critqued me. fairly, i thought. she expressed her concern for how i was doing. commmiserated re: some experiences. saw that i was sick. told me to go home. fair enough. i took her advice to heart. i just left.

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pc said something very sweet to me. brightened up my entire evening. made things worthwhile. i forget sometimes, that i'm not at STORM to just serve. it's not like i have so much to offer. i forget, that God put me there to receive and learn as well. and at times like this, to recieve a bit of healing and comfort when i least expect it.

you have no idea how much what you said meant to me, pc. thanks.

not to self: oryliltalk=still:)


yakob at 11:58 PM

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