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no, i don't get MAD... i don't get mad that easily (i think). (although these past few months are doing their best to push me there)
i usually try to step back and look at the big picture. either that, or i try to see the funny side, so i can drown my troubles in hysterical laughter.
but i don't get mad mostly because i realize people say the things they say because they CARE about me, even if it's hard to take at the time.
honestly, sometimes, when i'm REALLY stretched, i appreciate their meaning, but i can't take what they say seriously. because it's not so easy to just up and be happy because you will it to be so. that's reality. so, in that sense, i know what you're saying. but still, i know their intent is to let me know that they care, not that they are trying to get me to pull my hair out.
thankfully, although i'm exhausted, i'm not really mad at anyone or anything.
as much as i complain about all this, when i'm sane and it's not the morning, i can look at all this and think, this is GREAT. i'm seeing cool stuff, doing cool stuff, learning cool stuff...
and ppl telling me to be happy makes me feel like i'm being supported, that ppl are caring and praying for me. i'm under no delusion that i'm going through medical school solely by my intelligence and work ethic, both of which are suspect.
i KNOW i'm here b/c GOD put me here, and i will only go as far as He will take me. i'm here for the ride, with it's bumps, rolls, turns, twists, and all the beautiful scenery that comes with it.
one more day of OB/GYN, and it's over. then, the shelf. 3rd yr is flying by...
i feel like i'm not seeing enough of manhattan like i wanted to, not developing the relationships i want to, not serving in church as i want to, not reading as i want to, not being creative as i want to. i'm being squeezed. TIME!!! i need TIME!!! TIME!!!
ok, ok. i'm fine. really. haha. bed time, i think.
oh. joe chen, mr. -used-to-call-me-every-night-like-a-girlfriend, called tonight. we had a disagreement of sorts a long while back. then we sorted things out, decided that we needed space....no calls for months....until last month or so. now he calls sporadically.
we talked about our respective rotations, related stories, complained, asked the other why he didn't have a girlfriend yet...all the usual questions. then we talked about our future, what we really wanted to do....it's a tough question.
the problem is, there is SO much i want to do. i can't list it all now. maybe sometime later. the biggest problem is that the specialty that i choose in medicine might forever cut off the possibility of some of the things i want to do. makes me a bit sad. somehow, somehow...
yakob at 1:27 AM
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no, i don't get MAD... i don't get mad that easily (i think). (although these past few months are doing their best to push me there)
i usually try to step back and look at the big picture. either that, or i try to see the funny side, so i can drown my troubles in hysterical laughter.
but i don't get mad mostly because i realize people say the things they say because they CARE about me, even if it's hard to take at the time.
honestly, sometimes, when i'm REALLY stretched, i appreciate their meaning, but i can't take what they say seriously. because it's not so easy to just up and be happy because you will it to be so. that's reality. so, in that sense, i know what you're saying. but still, i know their intent is to let me know that they care, not that they are trying to get me to pull my hair out.
thankfully, although i'm exhausted, i'm not really mad at anyone or anything.
as much as i complain about all this, when i'm sane and it's not the morning, i can look at all this and think, this is GREAT. i'm seeing cool stuff, doing cool stuff, learning cool stuff...
and ppl telling me to be happy makes me feel like i'm being supported, that ppl are caring and praying for me. i'm under no delusion that i'm going through medical school solely by my intelligence and work ethic, both of which are suspect.
i KNOW i'm here b/c GOD put me here, and i will only go as far as He will take me. i'm here for the ride, with it's bumps, rolls, turns, twists, and all the beautiful scenery that comes with it.
one more day of OB/GYN, and it's over. then, the shelf. 3rd yr is flying by...
i feel like i'm not seeing enough of manhattan like i wanted to, not developing the relationships i want to, not serving in church as i want to, not reading as i want to, not being creative as i want to. i'm being squeezed. TIME!!! i need TIME!!! TIME!!!
ok, ok. i'm fine. really. haha. bed time, i think.
oh. joe chen, mr. -used-to-call-me-every-night-like-a-girlfriend, called tonight. we had a disagreement of sorts a long while back. then we sorted things out, decided that we needed space....no calls for months....until last month or so. now he calls sporadically.
we talked about our respective rotations, related stories, complained, asked the other why he didn't have a girlfriend yet...all the usual questions. then we talked about our future, what we really wanted to do....it's a tough question.
the problem is, there is SO much i want to do. i can't list it all now. maybe sometime later. the biggest problem is that the specialty that i choose in medicine might forever cut off the possibility of some of the things i want to do. makes me a bit sad. somehow, somehow...
yakob at 1:27 AM