Thursday, October 17
i can't sleep.
thoughts swirl and churn. a pebble of a thought is bringing down an avalanche in my head.
it's one thing to bring suffering onto my own head. it's quite another to be causing harm to another.
why am i screwing up so badly?
(thank you, i appreciate your concern, but this is not a call for sympathy or whatnot)
this drama has dug up much more about myself that i need to re-evaluate. more fundamental problems. my mind is numb and dumb and i am too tired to look deep.
yakob at
4:07 AM
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