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went home last night after house church, and hung out with parents. wished mom happy mother's day.
today, i remembered why i used to get so carsick all the time when i was younger. it's because my dad's a horrible driver. he never applies even pressure on the brake, and instead pumps it, causing the car to jerk, jerk, jerk, jerk. i was quite ill.
during our conversation, they randomly started talking about me and girlfriends again. (what is it with my parents? this topic is coming up with alarming frequency) they even went to far as to suggest a daughter of a friend. dude. what's going on? i'm not ready for a girl right now by a LONG shot. i know people my age are getting girlfriends, some are even getting MARRIED, but i'm just not there. and quite honestly, i don't know when i will be.
what's even stranger is that they are simultaneously scared and excited at the prospect. the thing is, my parents are pretty attached to me, and my brothers. i think they are afraid that my wife will demand that i abandon my parents, etc, etc, and basically steal me from my parents. i keep assuring them that no, they are not going to lose a son, but gain that daughter-that-was-never-born. at this prospect, they really lighten up, and get excited. they really want a daughter to talk with (one who will speak korean better than me), have fun with, etc. my mom really needs a daughter, in a bad way. not her diagnosis, but mine.
how am i gonna find a beautiful korean christian girl who not only will love me, but will consent to becoming a daughter to my lonely, daughter-starved parents? i'm beginning to think that this will never happen.
not only is it hard to find the above (next to impossible, i'm beginning to think...), but somehow, i've got to be at a place where i'm ready for a relationship. you would think, that being 23, soon to be 24, having been a christian for good while, having been a campus leader, leading bible studies, leading praise, being a youth group counselor, for goodness sake, that i would have my act together, and be ready for a relationship. but no. i don't want to present myself to my future wife the way i am. there are fundamental things in my life that need to change. i realize that i'm never going to be a perfect being on earth. that's not what's stopping me. but there are just some things i want to have right before pursuing someone. i want to be solid for my wife.
wow. how cheezy was all that? well, it's only sadder because i meant all of it...in some ways, i'm beginning to see that blogs might just be an extended personals ad. when my blog regresses to that point, i'm going to take it down. but neither i'm not going to censor my entries
yakob at 5:10 PM
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today, i remembered why i used to get so carsick all the time when i was younger. it's because my dad's a horrible driver. he never applies even pressure on the brake, and instead pumps it, causing the car to jerk, jerk, jerk, jerk. i was quite ill.
during our conversation, they randomly started talking about me and girlfriends again. (what is it with my parents? this topic is coming up with alarming frequency) they even went to far as to suggest a daughter of a friend. dude. what's going on? i'm not ready for a girl right now by a LONG shot. i know people my age are getting girlfriends, some are even getting MARRIED, but i'm just not there. and quite honestly, i don't know when i will be.
what's even stranger is that they are simultaneously scared and excited at the prospect. the thing is, my parents are pretty attached to me, and my brothers. i think they are afraid that my wife will demand that i abandon my parents, etc, etc, and basically steal me from my parents. i keep assuring them that no, they are not going to lose a son, but gain that daughter-that-was-never-born. at this prospect, they really lighten up, and get excited. they really want a daughter to talk with (one who will speak korean better than me), have fun with, etc. my mom really needs a daughter, in a bad way. not her diagnosis, but mine.
how am i gonna find a beautiful korean christian girl who not only will love me, but will consent to becoming a daughter to my lonely, daughter-starved parents? i'm beginning to think that this will never happen.
not only is it hard to find the above (next to impossible, i'm beginning to think...), but somehow, i've got to be at a place where i'm ready for a relationship. you would think, that being 23, soon to be 24, having been a christian for good while, having been a campus leader, leading bible studies, leading praise, being a youth group counselor, for goodness sake, that i would have my act together, and be ready for a relationship. but no. i don't want to present myself to my future wife the way i am. there are fundamental things in my life that need to change. i realize that i'm never going to be a perfect being on earth. that's not what's stopping me. but there are just some things i want to have right before pursuing someone. i want to be solid for my wife.
wow. how cheezy was all that? well, it's only sadder because i meant all of it...in some ways, i'm beginning to see that blogs might just be an extended personals ad. when my blog regresses to that point, i'm going to take it down. but neither i'm not going to censor my entries
yakob at 5:10 PM