complicated life
Friday, January 30

i wish life wasn't so complicated.

as someone once said to me, things that should be so simple, that ARE so so simple to other people, are terrible burdens and obstacles for me. and i don't know why. i'm a very low-tension person.

instead of being able to truly invest in a few people i care about, i do a little for a lot of different things, which amounts to . . . nothing. as a result, i hardly finish anything, i'm not punctual, i'm impossible to get in contact with, and i'm unreliable. so what do i do. i cut back on the number of things i'm involved with, which leaves me with doing very little for only a few things. what a wonderful testimony, right?

i would like to rest. i've lost a lot of ambition. no more napoleon complex. i need to restart.

i just want a small house with my wife. no kids. (forget about the 12 children i wanted at one time) and to live in peace. for some reason, the things i look forward to the most are so domestic: grocery shopping, planning and cooking evening meals with my wife. chopping wood for the fireplace. i don't know. simple things.


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jean, you prob don't read this, but... get better! i'll be praying that you recover quickly, and hopefully you can get back to doing the many crazy things you do. :)


yakob at 2:47 AM

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