Sunday, May 26

SLEEP

lifted with BJ last night at 11-11:45pm, did my email/espn/latimes thing, studied a bit, went to bed at 2am. except i couldn't go to sleep. again. so i lay there, on my bed, from 2am till 4:30. i tried all sorts of funky positions, on my back, belly, side, rearranged my pillow in so many different ways. i imagined a white blank, black blank, sheep, anything, but no success... i started thinking about basketball, the moves i would like to try to do, things in my game i would like to improve....then i started thinking about parker getting married....how strange married life would be...then i decided to rename my kids (i have a list of names i kinda like) threw out all the common ones, wanted some unusual names, not necessarily biblical (where does it say in the Bible that you should name your kids after Biblical characters?)...like aurore, or aurora...i've always liked that name, after the aurora borealis...the only thing is, it's kinda difficult to pronounce, and i have to really try and roll that name around...how about odalie? that's a nice name, i think....if i have boys, i think it would be cool to name them after artists, like leonardo...but that makes me think of de caprio..ugh...how about vincent?...constantin? (brancusi)...

...after some mental moseying, i remembered what PJH once told me: if you can't go to sleep, maybe it's God telling you to pray. so i did, not with a small hope that perhaps i would fall asleep praying. so i prayed for 30 min or so, thinking of all the things i need/should pray for, and all the things that ppl asked me to pray for, including the missions team from GLC that is going to ghetto Cancun (not the party area). but praying for those things just got my sympathetics going: heart pumping, body warming up, mind racing, breathing faster...after praying, i decided that sleep was out of the picture. at 4:30am, if i went to sleep, getting up at 8 to shower, wash, prepare stuff, get ready for youth group service would be rushed and just absolute torture to get up. so, i decided to finish studying yesterday's stuff that i couldn't finish, did some Qbank questions (practice board questions), and did my laundry. after some more studying, i got breakfast from hospital cafeteria at 7am (oatmeal, eggs and 2 sausage patties-- i'm still on my program to hit a lean, toned 162 with albert: not quite there yet, but will be, soon, by the time i see him in chicago for parker's wedding, i think).

i've kinda hit a mental wall, study material isn't going in anymore. oh well. it's time for me to get ready to go to the youth group service soon anyway.

after service, parents coming to pick me up. we'll head up to new haven. (david's graduation on monday. my little ddong gang ah ji is all grown up!) will probably watch Lakers-Kings game 4 (they BETTER win). then snag a nap. will probably do some midnight ball with dave and his classmates at midnight. sounds good.

ok, have a great Lord's Day, everyone!

yakob at 8:15 AM

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